Artist: Avril Lavigne
"Nobody's Home"
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
Singing along with this songs make me feels like the “she” that Avril sang about is me especially now. This pass few years I've keep trying hard to improve myself. Climbing the hill but I keep on tumbling down. It’s kind of tiring actually. Slowly draining my confidence bit by bit. I even had been labelled as a failure once. It came as a big hard hurting punch in my heart. So for a moment I lost myself and felling sorry for myself (which I do a lot lately.. and I really hate it). But a wisdom word of a friend cure my heart a bit. Although the advice came in a bit of a cynical way but surprisingly it really helps.
I was really upset that time being called a loser, I've been called with a lot of things this pass few years but being call a loser by someone I cared about really hurts. And then the advice came. I forgot the exact words, but it goes something like this. I will only truly be a loser when I believe that I am, when I stop trying anymore. If I stop trying then I will truly loose and that thing that I want I could never achieve, but if I keep going, someday, somehow, someday I will get it. It is just a matter of time. I will only be a loser if I believed so. Furthermore I should think about other things that I have achieved rather that the one thing that I still have not yet achieved Don’t feel sorry for yourself if it does not come now, because Allah only knows when the perfect time is for us to have it. So how I feel is just in my head. We can control how we feel.
I thank for this advice a lot to my dear friend. It is true. Although sometimes intelligent words cannot heal your pain but most of the time it does. And actually the burdens really feels lighter is there is someone to talk to.
And I figures, if only I cannot ever mends my mistakes, but maybe those mistake will be a useful lesson for somebody else maybe :)