~:: iNsPiRaTiOnAl ::~

If today were the last day of my life..

Remembering that all be dead soon.. is the most important tool I have ever encountered to help me made big choices in life...

This is deep...

~:: dIfFeReNt ::~

Here's to the crazy ones.. 

This made me not scared of being called crazy :) ...

~:: fAiLuRe ::~

If you never fail.. You've never lived...

~:: iNtEgRiTy ::~

Tell the truth.. And accept the consequences...

~:: mOtIvAtIoN ::~

Life is scary.. get used to it... 

SO TRUE..

~ :: wOrDs ::~

It is true that... words can heal.. words can kills.. 

So.. Choose your words wisely..

~:: sUrViVaL ::~

The smallest pain in our little finger gives us more concern than the destruction of millions of our fellow being.. by William Hazlitt

And I can't agree more.. that is how we should always remember how each individual sees the world.. So that we did not try to please them so much.. and waste our time and energy just to be likable..

Although how much they think bad about us.. or how much they say they cared about us.. at the end of it.. what matters to them is themselves.. they only think about you just long enough till something else happens to them..

Maybe it is just human survival techniques... Yourselves before others..

~:: *** ::~

~:: iNsAnItY ::~

Albert Einstein once said that :

Insanity is doing the same thing over an over again and expecting different results

So am I insane now if I am doing what he said as defining insanity? But what if there is no other way around. But I would also like to disagree with myself by saying that. Of course there will always be another way around. There is always two side of everything..

But what if I had done the other way around but end up still in the same place.. Am I still insane then?

~:: *** ::~

~:: kOsOnG ::~

Entah mana yang lebih menyakitkan.. Dihina.. dicaci.. dan dipukul bertubi..

Atau dianggap tiada dan tidak dipeduli..

Entah mana yang lebih menyakitkan..Diketuk berkali dan diubati..

Atau dibiar mati tanpa dikebumi..

\Entah mana yang lebih menyakitkan... Hadir namun tak mampu ada..

Atau sendiri dan menyepi..

Entahlah semuanya tetap menyakitkan..

~:: *** ::~

~:: lIfE fRoM a ReAr ViEw MiRrOr - PaRt 2 ::~

I'm fighting this bad habit... I want to get out from this one..

There's nothing there for me in the past... and I must not wasted anymore time on it..

But it is easier said than done..

Since then was more beautiful.. and the future is uncertain and scary..

I pray.. I pray that I will be guided with a way to be out from this habit..

Because there is truly nothing there for me anymore...

~:: *** ::~

~:: dAmAgEd ::~

Too know that how can a small child endure so much physical and emotional torture, is truly heart breaking.. To make it even more heart breaking is that this is a written based on a true story.. However.. this story scares me a bit.. to know that how a pain that was constantly put on someone can changed that person deep in side.. damaged it.. How this kid "Jodie" unconsciously developed a weird mechanism that she was unable   to control in order cope with the previous pain scares me a lot...

Can pain actually do that? But if this is truly a true story, then I guess it can..

How a skin that was repeatedly wounded can be damaged.. I guess goes the same with the heart.. And the problem is.. wound can be seen an treated at the spot it was wounded.. but if the wound is deep inside which cannot be seen by naked eyes.. and was keep hidden for so long.. what will happen to it??

~:: *** ::~

~:: lOsT fOr WoRdS ::~

Too many things going on in my mind right now..

All the words I wanted to say jumble up in my head...

But none of it are able to get out..

As a result all this war in my head dragging me down..

Honestly.. I have never felt this tired before..

This life is an endless battle..

And I know I need to keep myself strong..

Am I going to be a casualty in THIS battle?

~:: *** ::~